October’s blog theme is ‘Harvest’. Harvest season has arrived, when we can reap what we've sown. Last week, as I stood in the middle of my backyard gazing up at the bright Harvest Moon, it hit me: I can harvest my clarity.
I can harvest my clarity Now.
Six months ago I shook the proverbial hand of the Universe at the outset of this blog in agreement that if I created a discipline of time carved out for a creative outlet (the blog) and explored my questions (in the blog) the answers would arrive. I would receive clarity.
The intention of the blog has been to gain clarity.
I vowed to publish a post each week for one year. I didn’t even know what I was going to write about (!) (Again – no clarity) But, as soon as made my declaration, the clarity of the characters Cinderella, Kate, Lorraine, and the Hobbit came forward. I knew that if I wrote about each of them each month, the process would serve as a great house-cleaning for my mind and spirit and at the end of the year I’d be left with something. …. Something.
I can now look back at my first post on April 8 and read all about my questions. I had a lot of questions and no answers. I desperately needed to clear out the cobwebs in my mind and spirit. I had a ton-weight of dusty old thoughts, desires, memories, and unfulfilled hopes & wishes to sort through. I had to hold each one of those old thoughts, desires, memories, and unfulfilled hopes & wishes up to the light and ask “Does this spark joy?” just as Marie Kondo has taught us to do when we clean out our closets.
I knew my I had a mess to clean up. So often we discard those “monkey mind” thoughts and they pile up into a daunting mountain of confusion. I had recently heard the phrase, “what you don’t own - owns you”. Meaning – if you don’t face your fear or listen to that gnawing desire or ignore that same thought that is always floating around in you mind… if you don’t ever grab it by its ponytail and sit it down on a stool in front of you to explain itself – then it will pull you around by your ponytail instead - for all of your days.
And that’s where I was 7 months ago, back in March. I’d been ignoring a bunch of thoughts and desires for quite a while. No time. I had laundry to do.
Then - I was sitting at the dinner table one night trying to explain my grandmothers, Kate and Lorraine, to my husband. I was waxing on and on about how amazing they were in their own unique ways … and trying to describe their amazing set of skills that were the opposite from each other but that I could relate to each of them entirely. They both brought a special type of magic to their homes in opposite ways …. And then I stopped mid-sentence. I had the strong desire to know them as young ladies. What would they be like today if they were in their 20’s or 30’s? I wanted to share them with the world. I wanted to do SOMETHING.
And so – the blog. It all came together and I made my declaration. And then guess what. I was terrified.
But – I shoved my fear aside and pressed on. Much to my relief, the fear gradually dissipated and the writing took on a life of its own. I found that I wasn’t “in charge” of it. It was already alive and fully formed, and it just needed me to express it. It brought me joy and it brought me energy.
Here’s the secret. I got a little witchy about it, as I like to do, and decided to launch the blog during the Pink Moon on April 8.
Do you follow the phases of the moon? I never really have – this is a fun new thing I’ve been exploring this past year. I didn’t know that each full moon had its own meaningful name or purpose.
The Pink Moon is technically called the Paschal full moon. It is the first full moon after the Spring Equinox and it is significant because it is used to determine what date the Easter holiday will fall on each year. (I always wondered why Easter date changed every year!)
The practice among moon-followers is that during Full Moons they take time to prune their intentions to make room for new growth. During New Moons they plant the seeds and call in the energy of new intentions.
Each year, the Pink Moon is associated with the bustling life and vibrant growth of spring. Everything is budding and sprouting. The Arapaho tribe refers to the Pink Moon as the “Moon where ice breaks in river”. The Pink Moon is also known as the Egg Moon, referencing the time when animals are laying their eggs, hence the Easter egg.
Well. I like Easter, and I like Springtime. I love new beginnings. So I decided that I really liked the idea of launching the blog on the Pink Moon as a symbolic gesture to Mother Nature in the hopes that she would work with the Universe and together they would reward me, in time, with clarity.
I promised that I would be patient.
So – I’ve spent the last 6 months digging into my personal past and present experience as it relates to the 4 characters. I’ve been cleaning, sifting, tossing and polishing. I’ve been holding each thought up to the light and asking, “Does this spark joy?”
And guess what? Clarity has arrived. It didn’t take a year to gain clarity, it took six months.
Last week, I was gazing up into the light of the Harvest Moon when Mother Nature tapped me on the shoulder and handed me my next assignment: focus on Kate and Lorraine.
It’s all about Kate & Lorraine right now. That’s not to say that the Hobbit and Cinderella don’t spark joy. I love them both more than anything. They're always with me, and I’m certain I’ll circle back and spend more time thinking about those characters one day. But when you’re following the yellow brick road, it can be overwhelming to take in the entirety of its winding path. I need to focus on just these two yellow bricks in front of me.
The blog will take a turn now, and I’ll focus solely on Kate & Lorraine. I’ll be exploring fun concepts and topics that I believe they would be interested in today if they were young ladies.
Thank you for walking along the path with me these past 6 months as I planted the seeds of my intention, tilled the soil, and unearthed my first nuggets of clarity. Now I get to begin harvesting this clarity and really paying attention to Kate & Lorraine in their young adulthood years. I can’t wait to see what they’re all about!
"You don’t have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step." - Martin Luther King Jr.